Its September 14. Its our yearly appointment. Both of us far away from the homeland. Both sad and disgusted to where our country ended up. I’m not like others who write pages and pages about you, your character, your dream and vision. On every 14 of September, I have my small chat with you and I remember. I used to renew the promise, but not this year. You have to excuse me not to renew it this year. So let us begin our chat as usual.
Bachir: Tell me what happened to our land?
Me: What land? The one you loved and gave your life for? The 10452 Square Km? The one you dreamed about uniting? 32 years had passed since that ugly September 14 and nothing has changed. The land is still divided, small Islamic emirate here, another wilayat Faqih there and the farms that you hated, are still there but this time the small farm owners had changed. Our land still reeling under the press releases of unity, sovereignty and empty words. We are still 10452 years away from your 10452 Square Km.
Bachir: How about the State?
Me: What should I tell you? The State been without a President for some time. You remember your friends in arms: Samir Geagea and Michel Aoun? Do you remember when I told you about the war of brothers and how thousands were killed during that war? Do you remember when I told you about the imprisonment of Samir and the banishment of Aoun to France? Do you remember when Aoun returned and Geagea was set free? Do you remember what I told you? They will continue their own battle till the last Christian standing in Lebanon and the region? (Christians are almost vanished in the region and soon in Lebanon). This time both are engaged in a presidential battle till the last Christian standing in Lebanon. Their allies are using them to make sure that at the end of the day, the Christians of Lebanon stay weak and divided.
Bachir: How about the Land?
Me: Still being violated by many. Borders are still open to whoever wants to enter. Recently ISIS, Nusra and their sisters … who they are? Do you remember why you stood up and fought for? What groups? Remember your speech in which you said: “We will not “Ashmil” and our bells will stay up … . Well this is the newest version, more aggressive and barbaric. The Syrian army as you know left. But now we have a different Syrian invasion. We have over a million Syrian refugee. Don’t be surprised and yes we never learned the lesson. I know what the Palestinian refugees saga led to at the end. The Lebanese so called politicians did the same mistake. The results of the Palestinian refugees were felt after a decade or two, the Syrian one was felt after a year. Your dream of a unified 10452 square km is still a dream. You have armed groups all over the country. Some called Resistance, others Ansar al-Mouqawama, others Nusra, ISIS, … As for the army, ah well the same old story, never allowed to get equipped so it will not make a positive change in the country. What happened to the money from selling the LF weapons? Hmmmm, let me pas this issue it will upset some people in the organisation you built. One day I will tell you.
Bachir: How about the people?
Me: More divided than ever. Some say more complicated than ever. But I tell, and honestly, they become less intelligent. Majority are blind followers of this leader or that one. Ready to kill each other. Some divided on the political level. Others on the sect level. And it goes on an on. Yeah we are in the 21 century but the people are stuck in the 19 century as it seems. Some they want just live and many are barely living. But be sure, none of them will rise and say enough is enough, we want our dignity and lives back.
Bachir: How about my rifa’, my comrades?
Me: Oh your rifa’ … some everything stopped with your death. Others as I told you over the years, kept fighting each other to inherit what you have left behind. Some stayed clean and decided not to have their friends bloods on their hands. The way of labeling others traitor still going on and on a high note. When one of them can’t face the idea of the other or has a different opinion than his, automatically the “Tikhwein” starts. Many still talk in the name of the “cause” but they are on the opposite side of it. Some became linked to this “service” or that “service”. Money is flooding and for sure not from the party they are doing for fundraising. Very few are still loyal to the cause, their rifa’ and the martyrs. They kept working silently and helped silently. Many started to think of a change to do something to set the record straight. They think they owe it to you, your rifa’ the martyrs and those still living.
As you see nothing has changed since last year. Don’t get angry at me. You asked and I answered. But hey they keep saying: “Bachir lives in us”. It seems the one who lives in them is the dead one and not the one that we knew.